Wednesday, 18 November 2009

naturalistic pantheism...


have been thinking about this for a while. time to share it with you. naturalistic pantheism...

...is a form of pantheism that holds that the Universe, although unconscious and non-sentient as a whole, behaves as a single, interrelated, and solely natural substance. Accordingly, Nature is seen as being what religions call “God” only in a non-traditional (i.e., a traditional conception equates with a distinct being that features Omnipotence, Omniscience, and Omnibenevolence), impersonal sense, where the terms Nature and God are synonymous. Therefore, naturalistic pantheism is also known as “impersonal pantheism” and “impersonal absolutism,” and does not posit any form of supernatural belief.

ie: On the atomic level, we’re all made up of the same things. The sun, the earth, you, me, your pet, your desk, your computer; It’s all the same thing when you get down to it. At one point in time the particles were brought together by gravity, became burning hot inside of a sun, which eventually exploded, sending the particles all across the galaxy. Gravity brought the clouds of particles together, which eventually formed the earth, and us and them and that. We’re all part of one big process, we’re all in the most basic sense, the same. In the same way the atoms that make up our bodies; In one view they’re individuals, but in a broader perspective, they make up us.

Sunday, 8 November 2009

they say things get better with age...

I think I'm just aging

Friday, 6 November 2009

40 steps to a better life, apparently.

I'll keep you posted on how this goes. I have put a Top 40 of all the things I would either like to do, or do more or less of - right then:

1. cleansweep my life, this includes getting out of debt, re-writting CV, improve living space, e.g tidy up! And to socialise more.
2. take care of my apprearance at all times
3. have a rock hard body - well toned I don't want to be a body builder or anything
4. identify things that make me happy
5. meet someone new every week
6. do something for the first time every week
7. have a wardrobe full of clothes that i love and fit
8. stop procrastinating
9. make living space clean and beautiful (see point 1)
10. make a photoboard of all of my friends
11. get creative - make, bake or create one thing every week
12. drink more water - healthy body, healthy mind
13. more yoga, keep going until it doesn't hurt when i can put my hands in prayer position behind my back
14. complete one piece of work a day
15. go to Canada - snowboard!
16. get a new exciting job
17. get rid of clutter
18. give blood
19. sleep under the stars
20. send a message in a bottle
21. volunteer
22. camp near the sea
23. learn to play guitar - record first EP
24. ride bicycle every day
25. watch more films and read every book in my room
26. kiss in the rain
27. get botox, or maybe not get botox
28. save money
29. write blog, yay I'm doing this already!
30. learn to use my ipod properly
31. learn to read crochet and knitting patterns
32. make badges and draw on t shirts to make presents for my friends
33. take more walks around the berg
34. get up earlier, make packed lunch
35. if there's something free happening - GO TO IT!
36. ring my mum more often
37. stop posting questions on Yahoo answers
38. travel
39. save money to travel
40. complete my Top 40

Thursday, 5 November 2009

gone away, left a trace

i have all of these things of yours around my room yet its as though you didn't exist in my world. I don't even know who you are anymore.

have to erase the time we spent together from my mind, like that part of our lives didn't happen.

you didn't die or anything.
just turned off the light within our hearts
you stopped feeling it. I understand.

It makes me sad you're no longer around. Still think of you every second of every day. willing you back.
This emptyness within my soul has created a massive void that will only be filled when love finds me again. hard to let go. sad thoughts, hope some day you return.

jungle fever

noones as great as you

think they are

otherwise

they'd be here with you now

needing warm hugs

to fill my soul

full of

rainbowscopic euphoria

i've forgotten what that feels like. i miss it every day.

online dating experience number 25,453

No, he didn't call. Not that that's either surprising or a bad thing.
My life seems to continue in an unhealthy spiral that I allow to revolve around a pursuit in seach of that four lettered word L O V E.

The best way to sum up last night's episode would be in the following way:

- Awkward greeting, kiss on cheek, followed by a G&T
- Leather seats and a summation of each others lives in the space of half an hour with a brief interuption due to a glass smashing into smitherines to our left
- Me rushing to the bathroom. Mixed up headspace as to whether he fancied me or not. Arrived in the bathroom to spy a weird red rash had appeared on my neck; now where did that come from?
- Off to beer garden. Rollie + weird non coherent conversational responses given by me
-Back inside, more responses given by me that really didn't lead anywhere
-Last orders, weird kiss on cheek outside - I couldn't have been any further from the poor guy, place the area that covers the Sahara between our faces and you wouldn't be far off - I then swiftly hopped on my bicycle and cycled off into the fog chilled night.

Lovely gentleman, seemed like a good idea at the time, miss ex boyfriend who I confusingly split up with four weeks ago. I still love him.