Today I re-discovered Anthony and the Johnsons...remember listening to the album i am a bird now about 3 or 4 years ago. It meant something different then. Listening to it again now has made me realise how much time I spent wasting worrying about other people and not focussing on the here and now. Having fun for myself, forgetting about all the ridiculous worries and thinking too much. Damn how I love you are my sister...reminds me of Lattitude festival and Jess, of course, my sister, my best friend, my confident and the strongest rock in my life.
Thank you.
Then there's fistfull of love, what an amaing intro, that guy's voice stirs up so many emotions, mainly appreciation for what an amazing life I have, we have. It's nearly Christmas - let's go enjoy it!
Sunday, 20 December 2009
Saturday, 19 December 2009
i wrote a crap review - joyeux noel
Tuesday 15th December – Group Concert of Christmas Music, St Pauls’ Cathedral
Walking past the mile long queue, I sighed with relief that I had a ticket, and swiftly made my way to the front entrance of St Paul’s Cathedral. Here, I merged with a group of other confused looking Lloyds Banking Group colleagues as we asked the steward whether this was the right way to go. After being told to ‘form an orderly queue’ we proceeded in to the Cathedral and were shown to our seats. As I looked around at the amazing 17th century architecture and décor, I gazed up to see we were sat beneath the magnificently painted dome that makes up the centre of the building - just 7 rows back from the choir and speakers who were waiting to bestow upon us a medley of traditional festive cheer.
The evening commenced with a reading read by flickering candle light. Followed by a beautiful solo performance of the first verse of ‘Once in Royal David’s City’, sang by a choir boy with bright snowy white hair. As the choir finished the chorus ‘with the poor, and mean and lowly, lived on earth our Saviour holy’ the entire Lloyds Banking Group congregation took a big deep breath to belt out the next verse.
The evening continued in this vain. Celebrity guest speakers read out their various sections from the nativity story which in parts included a slightly more comical twist to the traditional tale. My favourite reading had to be ‘the Second Epistle’ from Joseph to the Corinthians. The reading was based upon a letter of complaint that Joseph had sent to the travel agency he’d booked his ‘holiday’ through - he wasn’t too impressed to be told that after travelling 70 miles from Nazareth to Bethlehem, with a pregnant wife riding on a donkey, that ‘there was no room at the inn (hotel)’.
The concert came to a close with us all standing to sing our final song ‘Hark the herald angels sing’, where, I have to say there were some well practised voices on the Lloyds Banking Group side, songs being sang with great exaltation, and very impressively even the highest notes were hit – not a smashed stained glass window in the building!
Subsequently, we all made our way to the Crypt for the evening meal. After a discussion about whether the Queen Mother was buried in one of the tombs, we went on to enjoy three courses, a fantastic opportunity to network, and a complimentary present. A great evening was had by all, and I now feel all the wiser for knowing the Queen Mother is buried in Windsor castle and not St Paul’s Cathedral.
Walking past the mile long queue, I sighed with relief that I had a ticket, and swiftly made my way to the front entrance of St Paul’s Cathedral. Here, I merged with a group of other confused looking Lloyds Banking Group colleagues as we asked the steward whether this was the right way to go. After being told to ‘form an orderly queue’ we proceeded in to the Cathedral and were shown to our seats. As I looked around at the amazing 17th century architecture and décor, I gazed up to see we were sat beneath the magnificently painted dome that makes up the centre of the building - just 7 rows back from the choir and speakers who were waiting to bestow upon us a medley of traditional festive cheer.
The evening commenced with a reading read by flickering candle light. Followed by a beautiful solo performance of the first verse of ‘Once in Royal David’s City’, sang by a choir boy with bright snowy white hair. As the choir finished the chorus ‘with the poor, and mean and lowly, lived on earth our Saviour holy’ the entire Lloyds Banking Group congregation took a big deep breath to belt out the next verse.
The evening continued in this vain. Celebrity guest speakers read out their various sections from the nativity story which in parts included a slightly more comical twist to the traditional tale. My favourite reading had to be ‘the Second Epistle’ from Joseph to the Corinthians. The reading was based upon a letter of complaint that Joseph had sent to the travel agency he’d booked his ‘holiday’ through - he wasn’t too impressed to be told that after travelling 70 miles from Nazareth to Bethlehem, with a pregnant wife riding on a donkey, that ‘there was no room at the inn (hotel)’.
The concert came to a close with us all standing to sing our final song ‘Hark the herald angels sing’, where, I have to say there were some well practised voices on the Lloyds Banking Group side, songs being sang with great exaltation, and very impressively even the highest notes were hit – not a smashed stained glass window in the building!
Subsequently, we all made our way to the Crypt for the evening meal. After a discussion about whether the Queen Mother was buried in one of the tombs, we went on to enjoy three courses, a fantastic opportunity to network, and a complimentary present. A great evening was had by all, and I now feel all the wiser for knowing the Queen Mother is buried in Windsor castle and not St Paul’s Cathedral.
Wednesday, 18 November 2009
naturalistic pantheism...
have been thinking about this for a while. time to share it with you. naturalistic pantheism...
...is a form of pantheism that holds that the Universe, although unconscious and non-sentient as a whole, behaves as a single, interrelated, and solely natural substance. Accordingly, Nature is seen as being what religions call “God” only in a non-traditional (i.e., a traditional conception equates with a distinct being that features Omnipotence, Omniscience, and Omnibenevolence), impersonal sense, where the terms Nature and God are synonymous. Therefore, naturalistic pantheism is also known as “impersonal pantheism” and “impersonal absolutism,” and does not posit any form of supernatural belief.
ie: On the atomic level, we’re all made up of the same things. The sun, the earth, you, me, your pet, your desk, your computer; It’s all the same thing when you get down to it. At one point in time the particles were brought together by gravity, became burning hot inside of a sun, which eventually exploded, sending the particles all across the galaxy. Gravity brought the clouds of particles together, which eventually formed the earth, and us and them and that. We’re all part of one big process, we’re all in the most basic sense, the same. In the same way the atoms that make up our bodies; In one view they’re individuals, but in a broader perspective, they make up us.
Sunday, 8 November 2009
Friday, 6 November 2009
40 steps to a better life, apparently.
I'll keep you posted on how this goes. I have put a Top 40 of all the things I would either like to do, or do more or less of - right then:
1. cleansweep my life, this includes getting out of debt, re-writting CV, improve living space, e.g tidy up! And to socialise more.
2. take care of my apprearance at all times
3. have a rock hard body - well toned I don't want to be a body builder or anything
4. identify things that make me happy
5. meet someone new every week
6. do something for the first time every week
7. have a wardrobe full of clothes that i love and fit
8. stop procrastinating
9. make living space clean and beautiful (see point 1)
10. make a photoboard of all of my friends
11. get creative - make, bake or create one thing every week
12. drink more water - healthy body, healthy mind
13. more yoga, keep going until it doesn't hurt when i can put my hands in prayer position behind my back
14. complete one piece of work a day
15. go to Canada - snowboard!
16. get a new exciting job
17. get rid of clutter
18. give blood
19. sleep under the stars
20. send a message in a bottle
21. volunteer
22. camp near the sea
23. learn to play guitar - record first EP
24. ride bicycle every day
25. watch more films and read every book in my room
26. kiss in the rain
27. get botox, or maybe not get botox
28. save money
29. write blog, yay I'm doing this already!
30. learn to use my ipod properly
31. learn to read crochet and knitting patterns
32. make badges and draw on t shirts to make presents for my friends
33. take more walks around the berg
34. get up earlier, make packed lunch
35. if there's something free happening - GO TO IT!
36. ring my mum more often
37. stop posting questions on Yahoo answers
38. travel
39. save money to travel
40. complete my Top 40
1. cleansweep my life, this includes getting out of debt, re-writting CV, improve living space, e.g tidy up! And to socialise more.
2. take care of my apprearance at all times
3. have a rock hard body - well toned I don't want to be a body builder or anything
4. identify things that make me happy
5. meet someone new every week
6. do something for the first time every week
7. have a wardrobe full of clothes that i love and fit
8. stop procrastinating
9. make living space clean and beautiful (see point 1)
10. make a photoboard of all of my friends
11. get creative - make, bake or create one thing every week
12. drink more water - healthy body, healthy mind
13. more yoga, keep going until it doesn't hurt when i can put my hands in prayer position behind my back
14. complete one piece of work a day
15. go to Canada - snowboard!
16. get a new exciting job
17. get rid of clutter
18. give blood
19. sleep under the stars
20. send a message in a bottle
21. volunteer
22. camp near the sea
23. learn to play guitar - record first EP
24. ride bicycle every day
25. watch more films and read every book in my room
26. kiss in the rain
27. get botox, or maybe not get botox
28. save money
29. write blog, yay I'm doing this already!
30. learn to use my ipod properly
31. learn to read crochet and knitting patterns
32. make badges and draw on t shirts to make presents for my friends
33. take more walks around the berg
34. get up earlier, make packed lunch
35. if there's something free happening - GO TO IT!
36. ring my mum more often
37. stop posting questions on Yahoo answers
38. travel
39. save money to travel
40. complete my Top 40
Thursday, 5 November 2009
gone away, left a trace
i have all of these things of yours around my room yet its as though you didn't exist in my world. I don't even know who you are anymore.
have to erase the time we spent together from my mind, like that part of our lives didn't happen.
you didn't die or anything.
just turned off the light within our hearts
you stopped feeling it. I understand.
It makes me sad you're no longer around. Still think of you every second of every day. willing you back.
This emptyness within my soul has created a massive void that will only be filled when love finds me again. hard to let go. sad thoughts, hope some day you return.
have to erase the time we spent together from my mind, like that part of our lives didn't happen.
you didn't die or anything.
just turned off the light within our hearts
you stopped feeling it. I understand.
It makes me sad you're no longer around. Still think of you every second of every day. willing you back.
This emptyness within my soul has created a massive void that will only be filled when love finds me again. hard to let go. sad thoughts, hope some day you return.
jungle fever
noones as great as you
think they are
otherwise
they'd be here with you now
needing warm hugs
to fill my soul
full of
rainbowscopic euphoria
i've forgotten what that feels like. i miss it every day.
think they are
otherwise
they'd be here with you now
needing warm hugs
to fill my soul
full of
rainbowscopic euphoria
i've forgotten what that feels like. i miss it every day.
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